Saturday, July 11, 2009
Yes, the air is cleared. Finally. Now they know it isn't 100% me. If a person choose to be the way they are, it's their choice. We can't influence much, we can try but may not succeed.They knew he smoked. My FIL said even my older son knew...he thinks we are all so stupid? I told R, see see...u always think everyone so stupid like u? Duh?Anyway, some things we said, I didn't tell EVERYTHING. But my Dad keep saying, no matter what...apologize. I told him I will THINK about it. I have this back bone in me that is refusing to apologize for something I didn't do? Why do I have to do so...just to show I give respect. Yes, I understand what my Dad mean, I really do. Cos it was something that I explained to someone else when I was in China. I apologize for something that I didn't do wrong yet got full blame for. Argh. I had enough of people stamping on me.Anyway, work is taking toll on me. Another 4 days to Phuket. DUN RAIN! I really need to shop and eat. My tummy look so flat today but it's gonna bloat before I go Phuket cos on Tues, I have buffets for lunch and dinner.
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9:30 AM
Monday, July 6, 2009
Came to office with a super heavy heart and a pissed attitude. Had a talk with my MIL. My MIL started off on when my parents intend to move out of the buangkok flat. Already hearing that mad me angry. Our plans for my parents to move there has no deadline because we had decided to follow wherever they go because of the kids. Now apparently, my FIL is fed up and told my MIL to just look for a studio where they live on their own. We will fend for ourselves.Yes, what they say is true. Living by ourselves will probably be better but what I am angry now is what was said to me.My MIL says she LOST her son after her son married me. Saying R doesn't communicate or tell them anything. I was like WTF. I said when I know R, he was already like that, and for a matter of fact, for the past few yrs, I had been the one telling him to start learning to communicate with his parents! Please remember even when we first married, they used to ask me where is he, how come he not home for dinner...I told them I don't know cos he doesn't tell me, I tot he told them! Can't they remember that? F**K lah. So what do they want? Him divorcing me will make them feel so much better?!?!?! Where the grandchildren goes to them completely so they have total control of my family? Open their eyes and see lah...I didn't change him. He changed himself. Even that is my fault? Can't they wake up and see themselves. I know my FIL isn't happy with me as our parenting differences. But putting that blame on me. I basically got fed up. I said it's how Shen is brought up. That was the F**King reason he gave me because he was the only child! Seriously, I am going to tell them about R's smoking thing also. He kept it from them long enough and I have been keeping from them too. Again, it's my fault. I will never win this. My f**King backbone is telling me not to give in to this crap. It's not my fault, so dun take the f**king blame for it. Our marriage WILL crack because of them. N pls those who are no involve in this, stop giving "comments" where is not necessary. This is target at all his cousins. Why say things that doesn't involve you. Damn damn damn. Let's state this clear. In my heart, I will not give my daughter to anyone! Ian too. Ion...I already lost him to them (and dun they know that hurts too?!?). If this leads to a divorce because of THEM, I will HATE them forever including the Father of my child. Because everything stems down to 1 person who caused all the problems. Listen clearly, this is my stand as of today. Anything happens, I want Ian and Ilyse. No one else can have them. I dun care how F**King rich they are and that can provide everything. They will not have them. N dun even expect visitation rights (cos they have the money to "screw" their young minds...which they already did with Ion). Everything will be OVER.
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8:37 AM
Thursday, July 2, 2009
All I can say now is I am F**King fed up!
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7:33 PM
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Oh god! I just went to the ladies in the office just now and guess what I have 2 very obvious pimples. This is bad bad bad! I never experience such a thing since the longest time.Is it because of work load?!?!?! Argh.............depressing! HELP. Will pimple cream help thru the night?!?!?!?! ARGH!Today was running all about getting things done. Somehow along the way I lost 2 highlighters! Now I only left green. Hmm...tomorrow better bring my magic pen with multi colours to highlight and read this horrendous tender specs.I have limited bandwidth...can everyone BACK OFF and give me time to catch up? It's already JULY. 13 days to 8th yr anniversay (and MIL's 60th b'day), we are all celebrating at THE LINE! Heehee. Next day flying to Phuket but going with a heavy heart with alot of work matters still on hand. But that's beside the point.Anyway, I am RAMBLING cos I am still in office trying to finish work but decide to blog for a while. Dun mind me. Latest good news, dad officially sold the flat. Now need to settle with HDB! Yippee...less 1 headache. Any more good news?!?!? I am having high hopes on my promotions. Let's pray the promotion and increment is good to make me stay. So let's pray....>_< (But knowing the economic situation and erm...the stinginess of this company...might be unlikely...sigh)
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7:43 PM
