Thursday, February 21, 2008
I asked R if we could go out yesterday, he immediately responded yes. He also decided the place. I guess, he is making an effort. Things went pretty well yesterday. We went to Raffles City , eventually didn't go Marina as I remembered I read in the 8 days there is this Japanese Marche restaurant at Raffles City's basement. Knowing that he like Japanese, I told him and we went down to try. It was pretty easily spotted. We were considered early. I had the Katsu-do curry (I like it alot). He had 2 pieces of unagi sushi & 4 pieces of salmon sushi. We further ordered 2 sticks of yakitori. Total bill (abt) $29. We didn't order any drinks or others cos I couldn't finish the curry as I dun eat much during dinner. Considering the amount that you order, it's actually not very worthwhile eating there. Eating japanese buffet is better (hahaha). Then I saw this nice pink dress at Robinson on sale at $13. Tempted to buy BUT I dun have a measuring tape to see how big is the bust size and the waist line. Should have asked the sales person. Haiz. Wasted. Maybe weekend I will pop by to have a look again or maybe another day...hopefully still around. It's only $13...material very nice leh. *haiz*After walking around, we went back. Didn't do much. Got home around 9.15pm. We still got a long way more to make things work. My mummy's birthday on Sunday, haven't ordered a cake...I guess I will just buy something off the shelf. =) Got to think of what to buy for lunch since we won't be having lunch as mum lost her dentures and can't eat. Hmmm...so what should we have??
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10:47 AM
Monday, February 18, 2008
I just weigh myself. I hit 54kg! ARGH...that's 10kg. =( Got another 11 weeks more to go. *haiz...and I just downed 4 mini eclairs and 1/4 tub of ben and jerry's!
R is treating me abit better these days maybe because of the sudden outburst on msn on him. However, knowing him, I do not know how long it will last. I am trying my best to feel less irritated with the things around me and him cos I dun think it's fair. Each time I say I give up but yet, I am giving him another chance to try to make things right. I just want him to be the one to does all the initiating...but still...I am doing part of it. He didn't remember my mum's birthday that's for sure. (Anyway, mum can't celebrate..she lost her dentures....*long story*..so dad says a cake will do and of course, I will still give her an angpow ..probably abit more since no need to go out for lunch.)
Now I am trying to take it day by day. But things get screwed up. Things I want aren't going well, things that I am not sure I want is. Haiz. Nevermind, let's take it day by day.
76 more days to seeing Ilyse (unless she wants to appear earlier)
62 more days to variable bonus (shopping?!?!?)
Current unsolved issues:
1) R & J
2) Maid (another long story)
3) Massage lady (another long story)
4) Life
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9:49 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
Happy Belated V-day to all. I didn't celebrate V-day cos I had to work late. Now I know WHY R gave me $100. His reason is because of V-day, so that I can buy my own stuff. He didn't even wish me when we woke up, I had to wish him yesterday. =( Many friends asked what did he get for me or did for me...I said nothing. They were so upset so they sent "flowers" via msn. So sweet.However that's not really the topic. I am upset, so upset that I told him...if he doesn't change...we will split by end of the year. I had had enough. He said he was trying...like HOW???? What had he really done for me? I am still thinking. If he is trying, things would had changed abit right? Or am I too blind to see? I told him off that he isn't afraid that he will lose his wife. He say no, he is afraid that one day I will walk away. But then why hasn't anything been done? He can tell me that he doesn't know why lately everything he does seem to irritate me. Alo..has he even realise that I am pregnant? Second, that he doesn't kiss me at all? Even the 2 weeks that he sent me to the MRT, only once when I initiated! Senseless right? Imagine the level of intimacy that we have. I starting to feel to turn off by everything until sometimes I can't be bothered to initiate holding hands with him. My goodness, I am HIS WIFE. I told him, I wanted attention...want to feel wanted...etc. It's not something difficult isn't it? N it's not something that I haven't mention before (i.e. look at previous posts). Haiz. I really dunno what to do now. I feel like getting away from EVERY single thing. I wish to set my mind free....or is it that I am looking for freedom? Freedom from him or from every single thing. Am I going crazy? Am I breaking down? Or is it the pregnancy HORMONES again????Well, let's see how it goes. The main reason that we are together is because of the kids and because of my parents. If it wasn't for them (esp my parents), I think the split would had been earlier. People who knows me, knows that I am tolerant...I give and I give. They know how much I HAD done for him...the sacrifices...but why can't he see them and appreciate me? why? =(
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9:47 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I actually wrote alot of stuff on Sunday, was feeling very down, but didn't type it out because the computer was in use. As usual tears flow and I just felt sad. Lucky in the afternoon my parents came for lunch, then I had tuition and evening went out for dinner. Kids were very good that day. Only thing that happened was that i2 cut his toe on the escalator and his left shoe had a cut too. So kids, dun ever play on escalator!R was nice enough to give me $100 last nite from his winnings. A surprise for me. Happy and dunno what to say. (Cos maybe I purposely ask him for winnings the other day. HAHAHA) Today seems like a quiet day. Didn't feel like waking up and coming to work. Drove to work today. I think I might invest abit on coupons on that I can drive but then I am feeling very tired. Maybe the sleep at night is getting to me. *yawnIt's V-day on thurs. Still haven't decide what to do...what to buy...I dun want to plan leh. I very sianz of planning suddenly. =( Howz?
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9:07 AM
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
This is really BAD. I am soooo tempted to buy alot of things. I saw stuff on OLD NAVY...the shoes and wallets looks great. Call me MAD, but I actually ordered a dress from Mandee. Dun even know if I can fit it later! I just hope it will motivate me to lose the weight.
Here is the dress.
Nice hor. It cost USD14.40. Shipping collected around S$7 (at the moment). Total: SGD28.60. Considering, it's CHEAP. The quality from Mandee is normally not bad. But hor, buy liao...when do I wear it? Hahaha. It's a party dress. See see...me and my temptations.
I have weaknesses for SHOES, pretty party dresses, wallets and bags. Like any normal GIRL. R doesn't give a S**T. He doesn't buy me these things...so I have rely on myself to BUY these things myself.
Sigh. Anyway, yesterday was reading up online on this Mirena IUD. Seems like alot of people have bad cons on this IUD. It's not cheap...cost $500 at least to get it inserted in. With the "flaws" and cons on the symptoms, it's abit worrisome. Rashes, weight gain seems to be common LEH. So how? The balloon isn't an option, pills either...ligation isn't either. How how how? I got another few more months to think abt it.
Can't wait for my massage tomolo. Will post up the comments on the massue. Hopefully she is good. Then maybe can con't with her for my post natal. Need to get all the fats OUT. Oh, must remember to put nice makeup, were a pants and tube...wanna take a lasting photo of myself with baby 3! I want to keep as big frame pic. But first, must find TIME to get R to take a photo for me! Maybe next few weekends bah. Oh, sheesh, need to pack baby's bag soon. Still got breast pump outstanding to get from Sharon, baby clothes from Serene (MARCH) and the baby cots from Carmen (end Feb/March). I want them done soon...so I can have less headache. Someone motivate me please.
89 days and counting down!
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10:12 AM
Friday, February 1, 2008
Finally it's the start of the 3rd trimester. I am happy....another 13 more weeks and I will see my darling little Ilyse. The last week or so I had been so worried. I had this "extra" skin that have been growing "there". Was on the forum with a few other mummies and 1 of them mention it might be a wart and that will affect natural birth. So I panick and couldn't sleep. R inspected and said didn't look like it. But then again, I had reaccuring warts (by the way, there are 70 types or warts and it can spread depending the KIND it is. So it is not necessary the HPV,which incidently has 30 kinds, that is spread by sexual contact OR by other methods). Anyway, today's visit to the gynae brought me TONS of relieve. I was the 1st one at the clinic at 5.15pm (the clinic starts at 6pm). Dr Adrian told me, it's just skin tag but I had another smaller wart (which doesn't affect natural birth). I asked if I can go thru natural birth, he said no problems. Further I asked if he can remove it when I gave birth, he said yes. Cos I rather hurt once and get it over and done with...since I am gonna get "cut" anyway. *grin* So it will be epidural this 3rd time around. Oh, must remind him abt it during birth...hopefully i remember. HahahaToday was pretty eventful, travelled the wrong route to work. A 30 mins trip took me 1hr. Got lost in Tampines. I realise what happened when I drove home...I was suppose to keep to the LEFT and exit and NOT RIGHT to exit. Then when I got to the office, while taking out my laptop, a stupid cockroach (god bless it) crawled on my leg. Scared me and made me flick my leg. End up, my feet hit the metal/steel cupboard. My toe still hurts badly. Now "zhong" liao. Hopefully it's not serious. Should have ask gynae to check too. Haiz...but poor cockroach had to be killed. It's bigger than my thumb. Man, lucky only Betty who sits on the other side heard me shout. I shouted because I hit my leg. Hahaha. I am afraid of cockroach and insects...but I was brave enough to kill it....thank goodness. But god bless the cockroach. Pregnant people not suppose to kill anything! *sigh*Oh, next update. Just weigh myself. I am 52.6kg now (at the clinic 52.3kg). Serious depends on what clothes I wear I think. Baby is now 1.294kg (approximately). Now at 28 weeks. And yippee...CNY coming. Now I am still tempted to buy more clothes, although I told R that I didn't want to. Hahaha. Anyway...time to rest. Hope tonight I get good sleep!
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9:42 PM
