Monday, November 2, 2009
Helped Dad and Mum moved into their new place. I think I injured my back somehow, it's hurting only when I am sitting up. Right shoulder hurt a little too.But I am glad, they finally moved over. Now maybe every weekend I can bring Ilyse over for a visit so that she can get closer to my parents. Will not bring maid along, probably ask her to keep watch of the other two. Just want me time with Ilyse. I love her to bitz but she is very energetic, dun think I can keep up with her much.She is 18.5 months. Another 22 more days to 19 months. How time flies and now she can run so much. She likes to sing (do not know what she is singing), screaming at her kor kor and well, she is really a joy to have around. Learning to appreciate this little girl. Somehow she is more fun to play with rather than Ion and Ian when they were young. Even now, Ilyse is more fun. She really brings alot of joy to everyone in the family that...I think Ian is again neglected. He was neglacted before, and now he is again. Maybe that's why he doesn't know how to control his temper. I am learning to control mine with him. I think he knows very well that I give way to him very often. But what to do, I am so fearful that he cries too much he might go into shock and start panting.I am so "fan" over so many things now. Whether I should let go or not to let go. Each time I say I want to let go, I can't. Should I just do it once and for all? How? Or just go crazy?Not many people understand what I am going thru. It's not difficult to just let go but why do I feel that it is?
Thots of the DAY @
6:20 PM
