Monday, April 13, 2009
I have never met another woman like this one.
One that doesn't understand she has a good husband, a good son and a good daughter.
One who doesn't know when to shut her mouth and not find problems in their family.
She isn't a giver, all she does it take.
Why is she so bloody insecure. If she is so insecure then DO something and not make it so suffocating for your own family. That's senseless.
As for me, I am SORRY if I used him as a my talking/counsellor. Cos I have no one else to talk to. It is really that bad? He shares some stuff with me, I share some back. He consults me on some stuff...and I do the same back. Anything wrong with such a relationship?
I know it sounds weird that we can sms whole day or weird timings or talk for long...but I don't see it as anything wrong.
People need other people to care. He cares and I care about each other like a brother and sister (I dun have a "brother" I can talk to...nor a "sister"). I dun talk at the house because of her parnoid thinking so what we do is during weekdays. If she was less parnoid...maybe it wouldn't had happen rite? Okay..whatever the case is. It's over. Will avoid talking to him. Damn she another "moron" I have in the family. Who can I talk to now? Or will I just go bonkers?
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12:31 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
I hate my life!Really hate!Hate what I had become.Hate everything around me (except my kids).Wish life was shorter so I don't have to go thru these tiring times.I am not in depression...dun worry...Just wondering why my life turn out this way. It's not something I want. Why can't I have what I want?!? What is it I want?Good qn.I want a happy life.I want a hardworking husband to take care of my every need.I want a good job that I want.I want peace in my life.I want to be able to want and not put my wants aside for others.I want....the list is endless....life feels so miserable and meaningless. I need to find a way to motivate myself. Y did things turn out this way? I want an escape...
Thots of the DAY @
1:23 AM
