Saturday, January 17, 2009
Went to see Dr Goh at MT E. for my ear. Well, saw that my left ear now has a hole which he claims is 20% in size. However, as I update him that last sat when I visited Dr Khoo, he didn't see that hole. Only on Wed on the review, he saw that hole. So Dr Goh mentions to wait for 3 weeks and see if it will start closing up. Hopefully it does, if not, a surgury will be needed.No other medication was given. So let's see 3 weeks later...what will happen. =(Overspending last 3 months. I dun wish to see my credit card bills this month. I seem to be spending alot but actually didn't seem to buy alot. How? Somehow must curb the spending. Must save and work more. Who will know what's going to happen in 2 - 3 months. Of course, fear of losing one's job is there but who isn't? Not that I am not confident that I am not doing well, I feel that I am. BUT the last retrenchment at Lenovo did hit me pretty hard. I was performing very well by alot of pple's terms (and what they had told me) but still I was hit. This time around, I really dunno what will happen. My boss doesn't have control, she doesn't know where she is going but she will still have a job cos the company can't fire her at all. Haiz. This year isn't a good year. So many things are not going my way. I feel like stopping the pills. It's causing me to have spotting and bleeding. But I have to finish this 1st month..if I was to stop...i think i'll see red this CNY. *sobz* I haven't tried my CNY dress. How? I haven't got a white colour belt yet...argh. Can pay day come faster? Anyway, I think whatever set aside for this month I have will go into paying for credit card bills. I doubt saving anything at all. *bummer...Part of me really feels dead. I feel happier when I am in office or with my daughter. With him beside me...I just wish he live his own life and I live mine. I wish I can stop having to remind him to do things. Tired tired...maybe blame it on the pills...it's bring me some mood swings?
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11:14 AM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I know I can be meddlesome but I am really disappointed in someone. I called to tell her about the cut-off point issue which apparently neither herself or her mother knew about. It was out of concern that I did it. I knew it upset her but I didn't expect her to complain when she got home....hence making me wonder...should I even give a shit about it. Should I just let her choose the course where there is NO WAY she can get into any and let the polytechnic just throw her to all the rubbish courses?! Maybe I should have lor...that she will be grateful? Now I know why she didn't MSN me back this morning like she normally does when I msn her. Damn I do feel shitty now. Okay maybe I am not in a bloody good mood today.Went to the GP for my ear review yesterday. Not very good news. Apparently the infection is healing, pus drying up, etc. BUT now there is a hole in my ear (okay...no side jokes. It's not the ear hole hole...but it's middle ear hole). The GP says that I might need to do surgury for it and ask me to get a 2nd opinion on it. I gave a contact which is my boss's contact. It's going to be expensive but damn what choice do I have rite? I went home, read on the internet...apparently the hole MIGHT or MIGHT not close up. If it doesn't, I will definately need surgury. *sobz. Yes, because of this, I am F**King upset but does anyone know? Damn...why help others when I can't help myself? Good question to ask. Had to work from 8pm till 12pm last night to clear some work. Just got a call, got to rush down to the other office by 2pm. Now got to get out of office. Bye bye.
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10:29 AM
Monday, January 12, 2009
Went to the tattoo convention on Fri and Sun. It was awesome. J finally decided to do a tattoo. He claimed that he always wanted and well, he finally did. He did the MU logo. I said SHIT. Cos on Friday I was thinking of doing the MU tattoo on my left shoulder than a cross on my centre back. Ah well...guess I will debating on it. Got till July to decide if I really wanna do the cross. I love it.Imagine, a cross and a devil. *grin* Kinda a mix but that's me. Got to balance out abit. Dun call me siao leh. I think R is rite, tattooing is addictive and the tattoo show really push you to the edge that you really wanna do it.Anyway, today was a good day. I enjoyed myself alot. It's still pretty peaceful. Mariann and Val did very well for their O levels. Mariann had 17/14, while Val had 20/16. So congrates to them.My ear block is still around but went to GP on sat. Got to go back review on Wed. *yawn*. J ask me to tuition his son. I say to wait...cos I need to confirm with my current student the schedule. By the way, I have told him my charges. HAHAHA. Wait till he hears it. He will probably ask me to discount. LOL. I want my job still. Hope my boss let me keep it...but then again, it's not under her control. So these few months are rocky months. Okay..got to go bath and wash up before my 2 boys come home. Been working online till now. (too late...the 1st monster is HOME)
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Monday, January 5, 2009
Call me crazy but I actually like attending focus groups.Reasons are pretty simple:1) You get to understand how marketing happens2) You get to know more people3) You actually get paidLast year, I think I attended around 4 focus/survey groups. Earning around $40 - $60 each time. Today I will be attending one which is paying $100. That's quite alot of money but it's spare cash. Thank goodness R doesn't complain about me attending. It's like my few hobbies.I told my nieces and nephews to attend as there is nothing wrong trying, as they only need to submit their names. Who knows they are lucky and get called up to attend. $50 - $80 is considered alot of money for just 2-3hrs work. Yet, they tell me that they are lazy. Haiz...kids these days are very pampered.Hmmm, yesterday I went to Automobile mart at Kaki bukit. Wanted to test drive the Suzuki Alto - Auto but only managed to test drive the Manual car. *Sobz. Worse still, the Auto was completely sold out and the distributors might not bringing in anymore. *Sobz more. R lah...always dilly dally. It's a great car. Small and compacted but likable. We are always suay when come to these things. *argh.Anyway, hope that someone can find that car for me. The last price was $29,988. In Nov, the price was $27,988. Could have gotten cheaper. =(*sad sad
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8:59 AM
Thursday, January 1, 2009
It's finally a new year. Time seem to have passed in a flash. Alot of ups and downs. Alot of old hopes and old dreams. Alot of resolutions were made but I wonder if I achieved much last year. It's time to make new ones.My resolution this year:- to try to be happyIt's not a tough target yah? But somehow part of me is feeling is a tough target to achieve. It gets very tiring to act as if everything is freaking fine and dandy, it's hard to put a mask daily and think that life will be okay. I am still contemplating whether to move on with my life. I don't feel happy. Should a person feel happy everyday with another person. Should a person feel trapped everyday and wishing the way I wish. Is it normal or am I asking too much?Why I can't I just stay happy and be happy. Dunno why I am feeling down.Anyway, the past 2 weeks had been hectic.23rd - we went Sentosa. We went to see the images of Singapore (Ian got real scare with wax humans), underwater world, dolphin lagoon and 3D Cinemax. Everything was free from the entrance to sentosa to the entrance of the above attractions. Even lunch was foc (provided by my cousin-in-law). So we saved quite alot of $$ on this trip.25th - we went to the bird park. Damn..there were alot of birds. Hahaha. Again, it was FOC cos I manage to grab bird park cards and using my cousin-in-law's card to enter. My parents and niece went. We had a good time.27th - house warming party cum post-xmas gathering. In-laws wants to show off the house. I sorta enjoyed myself cos I had some drinks. Happy on this day.28th - Rebonded my hair. The top part is flat but the rest is so-so only. Sigh. Wish it was flatter.30th - Dinner at one of R's cousin-in-law's place. The wife bakes great turkey, honey baked ham, muffins, log cakes and spaggatti was good. I ate alot. Enjoyed the food tremedously.31st - We went to the Zoo. The kids loved it. The new rainforest kid's playworld was great. The water area was fantastic. I enjoyed the Don pie that was brought. Ate 3 slices. Haha. If you noticed, I ate alot these days. My tummy isn't flat at all. *sobz. Now I am thinking of fried chicky wings...maybe cos my "aunty" came and cravings are here. Oh, loads of pimples too. Look horrible now. I seriously need to buy a good brand of foundation that can cover up plenty during the CNY.
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