Got a couple of calls from headhunters...nothing which excites me much. Got an interview coming up on Friday. Position isn't something I am looking for 100% but it will give me a good stepping stone if the company is willing to train me. While another fren of mine has reccommended me to another co. which is still pondering on hiring though...that position is 100% what I hope to go back to...but the hours are a killer.
Often mothers are torn between working long hours and spending time with kids. I guess I am not exceptional. However, I ain't those motherly kind...it's hard to explain...many a times others see me as being selfish for not spending enough time with my kids...or spending enough time at home. No doubt, I love my kids...for god sake...they are my flesh and blood. But I really HATE being at home. I feel so alone...but thank god for the internet & work...if not, I guess I will die of boredom. Sometimes I feel so suffocated here. Having to keep a straight face even though I have fights with husband. It's difficult. Yet, I dun want to move out because of my kids and in-laws. I dun wish to drive a barrier between everyone so I just "ren". I am pretty easy going actually...I close ALOT of eyes and I think so does my in-laws. So guess what...we compromise. Thank god that NOW my FIL actually does not interfere when I teach my son a lesson (i.e. scold/nag). I think he is starting to accept that we as parents have some right to "scold" and "teach" him.
Anyway, Ian vomitted today again. He was so moody almost to the end of the night. Crying..wimpering...just very "ma ja"...but after vomitting, he can smile. That's a good thing...to see him smile. He is a little "devil" but damn...he can be a extremist. Love him to bitz...though my hubby loves the older one much more. Younger one gets more of the beating, cos he can get on his daddy's nerves alot more times.
Okay...enough. I think I diverted too much. It's sleep time. Think abt tomorrow being a better day...
Sigh...I am about to complain again. I wonder how long can the University take to send me my certificate. I hope it won't take like forever! It took me a real long time to get it done.
My dad joked with me the other day, he asked, "since you finish your MBA, are you going to take your PHD?" I was like "you siao har!?!" I dun think I am ready to study any higher unless I am crazy enough to waste more money (technically it is wasting the money to get a piece of paper which most of us hope will bring us further in life.). I think what's valuable things that I got from there is some classmates who are pretty interesting.
A classmate joked with us during 1 gathering. He said that we should all gather together and set up a company. We have a HR, a CFO, a consultant, a "some what lawyer", pricer, and a couple of sales folks. So it's good enough to set up a great team! >_<
He is one cheery guy in class who didn't realise that some of us was under 30. Told him I was the youngest in the class and well, he said "really, hur?! Plus u got two kids!" Well...what a nice statement. I feel OLD...very OLD now. So can someone make me feel young again?